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Stay Focused.

by

LotusFlower, RN

I know it may be a struggle, but try to look beyond what is right in front of your eyes.

“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.”

Aristotle Onassis

Don’t get lost in the present moment. I know it may be a struggle, but try to look beyond what is right in front of your eyes.

One thing I learned at the age of 22, is that life keeps moving and the world keeps spinning, whether you are ready for departure or not.

At 22 years of age, as most of you know, I had major back surgery that threatened my ability to walk again. Yes, this was incredibly scary. And yes, my mental well-being took most of the hit.

But, now at 31 years old, I have a different appreciation for my current state of recovery. I am able to REST my mind and body because I am FOCUSED on what’s to come. I know my current state does not define the rest of my future.

While you are drowning it is hard to think about anything besides oxygen. But once you figure out how to swim, remember where you started and FOCUS on where you are heading.

With love always, LotusFlower,RN

A letter to my sister.

To: My Sister I didn’t protect.

The people that ostracized me

To the only family I had that made me feel guilty 

I hate that this happened to you too

I hate that you yearn for freedom and live carrying this dark pain 

My wound is still raw and still burns 

The pain is nagging 

It nags and nags and nags,

And nags and nags 

I hate that I didn’t warn you 

I was suffocated by fear

But I’m proud of you

You did the right thing 

I’m here to hold your hand 

To cry and yell and cry and scream

Sincerely,

LotusFlowerRN

Need Help?

I know this topic can be triggering. So, if you find you are in need of help, here are some resources in the U.S.

Finding help is one of the strongest things you can do in life ❀

DV Hotline

Contact Them
1-800-799-SAFE
Text “START” to 88788

Lifeline

Website
1-800-273-8255
24/7 Support

Helpline

Website
1-800-662-4357
24/7 Support

π™°πšžπšπš‘πšŽπš—πšπš’πšŒπš’πšπš’.

I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t lose my self in social media as I conquer one of my biggest fears.Β #rejection

So, instead. You all are going to get the bloopers. The imperfections… I refuse to attempt 1,000 takes and criticize myself for what others MAY think about me. 

I have no idea what I am doing here, but I love it because π™Έπšƒβ€™πš‚ 𝙼𝙴.   🀎🀍

Teach true self-love, it’s our only real love. 

With love, LotusFlowerRN

Authenticity. #lotusflower_rn

Amani 🀍 π”Έπ•žπ•’π•Ÿπ•š 🀍 AᴍᴀɴΙͺ

I love our snuggles, our staring contests, dodging you licking my mouth, apologizing to friends for the blessing you left on their carpet your first time there, our tug-a-wars, never being alone (not even to πŸ’©), and running through the house playing tag like ya girl is 9 again !

Wouldn’t trade YOU for the world.Β 

Amani- You showed me parts of love that I didn’t know existed within me. I love you girl ! Thank you for always entertaining my shenanigans, like always finding an excuse to dress you up πŸ‘—β˜πŸΌ. But, more importantly, for being my loyal protecter, my best friend , and my reason for not quitting.

With love,

Your mom, a.k.a. LotusFlower, RN

Post-Op Day #4

7/29, gotcha day!

Yesterday was your β€œGotcha Day!” girlfriend !!! And, I cannot began to describe how you have changed my life since adopting you.

I had no idea what I was signing up for when I adopted you. You are the first dog I have ever had.

But now, you are my first true love.  🀍

I never knew how much I needed you, until I had you. You ran into my life when I was scared and broken. 

But, you mended my heart and gave me hope again. You gave me a reason to get up and try everyday. 

Β 

Post-Op Day #3

LotusFlower, RN

The Dreamer

Reflections by LotusFlower, RN

My day started with a refreshing phone call from one of my sisters β€’

While sparing y’all the 2-hour long details that transpired β€’

We processed our current barriers, we shared our goals, we uplifted each other, held each other accountable, we had an honest talk β€’

It left me feeling encouraged β€’Β 

& that it is OK to dream foreverΒ β€’

To not take life for face value, to not grow content , but to always search for more β€’ 

I needed this more than I thought, because I didn’t realize how much I am seeking shelter in my comfort zone. β€’ 

So, today I am breaking down walls that have been built. β€’

I want to break free from the corner I have been in β€’ 

It whispers lies that β€œI’m not good enough” β€’

So, today, on post-op day #3, I’m grateful for being a

DREAMER β€’